That’s where I’m going to go this summer – freakin insane! I love my kids, but they are driving me freakin insane! I swear I swept the kitchen floor of all the sand that was making my bare feet very angry, I walk out of the room for one freakin minute come back and step in a pile of biscuit crumbs……%*$&!!*. I’m trying to keep up with the laundry, but youngest can’t find his baseball pants (cause they are wet and in the washing machine) so he digs through my sorted laundry, which I discover later and need to resort it all. The dish washer is full of clean dishes, the drying rack on the counter is full of clean dishes, and do you think anyone (besides me) could come to the conclusion that they need put away……flaming pits of h-e-double hockey sticks no! So the sink is one big clotted mass of piled up dirty dishes. The d.a.m.n. cat is whining for food, does anyone hear this (besides me)……..flaming pits of h-e-double hockey sticks no! And I hate the word freakin and fricken, but h-e-double hockey sticks it’s richocheting around my brain along with the really naughty word cause I’m so frustrated, and I see this endless summer of chaos looming before me.
In addition I have these overwhelming feelings of depression and sadness after sitting at the baseball game and seeing this witch of a woman jerking her children by the arms, hissing in their little ears that they better do this or that, and then hauling off and swatting them just because they had the audicity to sit too far away from her. And I’ve started the Michael Pollen book; The Omnivore’s Dilemma, and so far my thought is how can we fight the huge machine of government and greedy corporations. These entities that are so removed from the earth and soil who make policy and cater to the industrial mindset. These things make me feel so hopeless and helpless – what to do in the face of such overwhelming and complex madness. In the first case I prayed like mad for those two little kids. Just like I pray for myself that even though I have days of enormous frustration that I can see past them to what is really important – loving and nurturing these boys to the best of my abilities. And immediately declaring a family meeting in which I set up the rules and regulations for the summer!
Well, I don’t blame you if you have ducked and run for cover. I just needed to let off a little steam!
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Jackie! I for one totally understand frustration and a lot of depression and hopelessness about the world and governments, and coporations, etc…. who do whatever they damn well please and stick it to us, “the little guy!”
Thanks – I needed to say that too!
Seriously though…I hope you have a better day tomorrow and keep praying…I hear it does wonders.
I hear you, Sister! At school, I run a tight ship as far as kids making a mess. But when my daughter lived at home still, she was a piggie! And no amount of cajoling or threatening would help.
You know, I am highly interested in what is going on with the environment and with the government. However, I get so FREAKin’ upset about it all, I often have to just not watch, read, or think about it, I get so angry.
Sorry to hear you’re in a funk.
I am up at 3 am because I woke up and started thinking. This should probably be an email instead of a comment. Oops.
I’ve been meaning to read that book. Hope things look up for you soon! Maybe sewing someting easy that you know will come out well could help? Sometimes that works for me.
I feel your pain. I have had many a summer break following my kids around with a broom and wet sponge.
Your family meeting should go a long way as far as organizing a chore chart of some sort.
I am so sorry about the mean woman…..I would have found it hard to bite my tounge. Poor children.
This world can be such an unfriendly place full of cruelties of all kinds. I finally decided to make my part of it the best I can.
Keep smiling….I love you blog. It makes me smile!
Ah Sister! I hear you. Last week hubby left bandaid wrappers out on the bathroom counter for three days…three! not noticing they need cleaning up. I ended-up breaking down and throwing them away myself.
I also found out last night that although we are vegetarian with vegan tendancy we/he are/is heavily invested in pork product in China, dead pork product! I want to cry but the baby is taking care of this for me.
oh dear, pour this girl a margarita!
you have my sympathy. i hope you can find some time for yourself this weekend, alone, even if it’s just a little walk…
i really wish you would have included a picture of your self, screaming, and pulling out your hair. that would have been super-cool.
Some days are diamonds, some days are stone…yes, they are. There are days when I could just wish the world away, find a little hidey hole for me, and hunker down away from it all. I don’t like that feeling, but it does come now and then. Fortunately these days don’t last. I hope your weekend brightens up for you and your load is lightened.
I feel very guilty many times because I have chosen not to listen to the news. I either end up in a rage or in helpless tears. Sometimes being selective about how and where I can make a difference helps me.
Best to you.
You have already cursed your boys to have kids just like they were, right? Because no one should make it through age 5 without hearing “one day you’re going to have a child JUST LIKE YOU and then you’ll see, oooooh then you’ll see”.
I’m glad you wrote it down and got some of that out!!
It’s been a h-e- double hockey sticks of a week for me too.
I’ll bring the gin and you supply the tonic and let’s have a stiff drink together. Oh we’ll also bring our wips that do not require a machine, find a big shady tree (and if there is some running water sweeter) and get a bit giggly (and the tipsy errors we make in our sewing were ment to be). This week was just as interesting as the last…. Shame you are too far to have a moan bond over a drink or five… So I will send you an email instead. Would take your boys off your hands, if they would do chores (I need a ‘%$% cleaning fairy)….
UH…wear flip flops around the house and you won’t know what’s on the floor. That’s it–flip flops for Mother’s Day. We had a “nice box” for a while where we (that means me) wrote down the nice things anyone did at home (put away groceries, put up their toys, etc and put them in the box and read them every few days. It was inspiring and comical, too.