It feels so trivial to sit here posting pictures and typing words in the wake of such catastrophe. And more bad weather looming this afternoon. We are fine, but this has hit very close to home. It certainly creates perspective. What I can do, and you can do is not take anything for granted. Love your people, be grateful for a home, reach out and get to know your neighbors, share, pray, recognize the miracle of drinking water and a warm bed and coffee in the morning. Hold someone’s hand, and while you are holding their hand notice how it feels in your own, the weight of it, the warmth of it, the texture of their callouses and fingerprints. Be present. The end of the world may not have come on Sunday as predicted, except it has for the people affected by this tragedy.
On the home front I’m going through my own life blip, and I need a clear space in my head for my own perspective, and clarity. Sometimes I emerge from blogging and blog reading, etc. feeling completely muddle-headed. Like I’ve tried to fill an empty hole in my soul with distractions. I can call it inspiration. I can call it connecting. I can call it tapping into my creativity. But when I’m being completely honest with myself I recognize it as a type of numbing and hoarding. How many images do I need to collect, really? How much inspiration do I really need? How many words do I need to read to fulfill these longings? This all goes back to doing the hard thing. If what I need is space and to feel what I feel, then I have to step back and create that space. Not fill it with busyness and images and stuff. Please don’t get me wrong. I’m in no way denigrating blogland and the things going on out there. I’VE just lost the why of why… it’s not making sense to me right now, and for me it’s like crack cocaine – a way to escape. All of that to say I’m taking time off – it may be a week, it may be 6 months, it may be indefinite. I don’t know. I do want to make art, and I lament I never have time to make art. And again that’s also because I spend too much time seeing what other people are up to. So, if doing art feels like it will be healing then yes I will post new stuff in the shop. Otherwise I’m on sabbatical.
I want to thank each and every one of you who have visited, commented, shared my journey. You will never know what you have meant to me.