Maybe, just maybe I’ve raised my children right. Case in point: Occasionally my financially wise husband likes to find ways to shave costs. So the subject of coffee came up while the five of us we’re having dinner one evening. We started discussing various brands, etc. Brian mentioned that perhaps we could be satisfied with something cheaper than Starbucks. Now this is where I opened my pie hole and got thoroughly schooled. I opened my big mouth and stated, “I’m not willing to give up one of the few luxuries I have! I’m not giving up my two cups of Starbucks every morning!”
Then Marshall says, “Are you serious mom? We’re eating steaks right now. And you are driving a brand new vehicle, and we just bought another kayak. It seems to me you’ve got plenty of luxuries.” And Oh My Gosh! I was completely abashed as this statement sunk in. Now, I know all about wants and needs, but something about that word luxuries and the way this conversation was going made me ashamed of myself!
I’ve been thinking about this for days now, because Marshall’s words shifted something inside of me. I started thinking about my Compassion child, and what she might consider luxuries. I thought about how I feel I “deserve” everything I’ve got and then some. The truth is I have luxuries out the wazoo compared to most people in this world. Just this week we were asked if we might have room in our house and hearts for a high school boy who has been sleeping in parking lots at night to avoid going home to his abusive father. I wish I could tell you we said YES emphatically. But we didn’t, for several reasons. And I wonder if the big reason is because deep down we’re selfish. All I know is that I want to grow towards being one of those people who deeply appreciates what they have and can, without hesitation, share it with others.