My kids have been screwing up lately…and their lives are speaking about betrayed trust. And weirdly I’ve only had one moment of flash point anger, where THE ENFORCER reared her head with annihilating power. That anger flamed up and boiled my insides and then subsided just as quickly. But what replaced it was a heartbroken love that is far more painful. How to help my kids navigate their complicated lives without making mistakes with complicated consequences? How to help my kids let their lives speak with integrity? How to love them through their mistakes, and not tear their heads off? How to let my parenting speak with integrity and humility? The humility born from acknowledging my own misteps and regrets made when I was their age. How to find the strength to be consistent and firm because you know that’s what heartbroken love requires?
Maybe heartbroken love looks like asshole parenting to a 13, 17 & 19 year old. Maybe heartbroken love looks like weakness to a 13, 17 & 19 year old. Maybe heartbroken love looks like a life line to a 13, 17 & 19 year old. Who knows. Time will tell.